I'd just like to add..

That as a result of spending 3-5 hours a night on rollerskates, I have lost almost all mobility in my limbs.

I am so freaking tense and have no flexibility left in my poor, sad muscles.

I tried to do some yoga earlier today and it was like I've spent my life in a bed. I could barely touch my toes. It was shameful.

I am so stiff and concentrating every muscle in my body into not falling that it's like I am made of concrete. While I adore this show I can't wait to be back to my bendy, pliable self.
That's all.

Ima eat a mango now.

Finally

After what seems like years of waiting, Paper Heart comes out next week!!!!

I've seriously been waiting since Sundance for this to come out.

Last night rehearsal lasted until 1 am.

We were at Will's house learning the final dance until about 8 45pm. I am not in it until the very end so I ate and laid in the hammock the entire time.

Then I got everyone Coffeebean and met them at the theater.

We worked a few dances and then began a full run of the show.

It went way better than expected, especially since we are still dealing with the set that the kids are using for their production. Thank god it's coming down in time for tomorrow's run.

Alexa gave me some kind of "energy square" before we started the run and whatever it was, though perhaps slightly suspect, actually worked. I was up until 5 am unable to sleep.

Probably shouldn't eat things that I don't know what they are.

I didn't even like how it tasted, I just kind of forgot I was eating it.

Have today off of work, which is great because I'm tired and need a day off, but makes me nervous, because as always, I need money. I'm not called for rehearsal either tonight.

Paaaaaaarty with So You Think You Can Dance.

Long Days Journey Into Night

Kind of.

The thought of tonight is looming over my head. I'm pretty sure we are going to have like an 8 hour rehearsal.

I am trying to mentally prepare myself.

A cheeseburger would probably help me to prepare.

The stress of a show always makes me eat more it's bad.

But, I think it's ok becacuse Tracy (my director and friend) burned me a copy of P90X workout series. And while we know my track record with sticking to a workout routine is less than stellar, I feel like I can justify this insane burger that I am dreaming about.

I'm so tired and I get more tired at the thought of having a rehearsal.

At least the first two hours of rehearsal are at Will's house where I will most likely be lounging since I can't rollerskate on their back patio. This would be an opportune time to eat said cheeseburger, actually.

Got an email from Erwin, director of Julius Caesar. Our first cast readthrough is on Sunday.

Tired at the thought of that as well.

xoxo

Almost Tech

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Last week of rehearsals before we go into tech next Monday. And just our luck, the theater where we are performing and have been rehearsing has a children's theater performance of Peter Pan every day this week so we can't even get into the theatre before 9pm.

Last night we met at Will's house at 7 because he lives so close to the theater and had a dance rehearsal. Lucky me I did not have to practice much because I am only in one of the dances and I could not wear my skates in their house so I mainly swung in the hammock. It was delicious. So was Will's dad's pickletini. Yums.

At 9 we moved over to the theater and did a choppy run through of specific scenes and transitions we need to work on. Lucky for me I pretty much know where and when I need to be onstage and haven't had any trouble remembering that so I'm not really concerned for myself, though the long hours and the inevitable tension that comes with opening a show in two weeks does start to wear on you.

Tonight should be another long night when I am finished with work. At least I have time to eat dinner before I go to rehearsal since we don't start at 9. But it's so weird how regardless of how much I eat by the time I'm at the theater I pretty much just want to stuff my face with pizza. Preferably from Whole Foods.

I came across this blog and I really love it. It has a great mix of art, culture and fashion and if I lived in Chicago I would probably go everywhere that the writer, Dana, suggested because it looks amazing. I haven't been to Chicago since I was 10 so I would say I am long overdue for a visit. Check it.
The Artsighter

Tomorrow is going to be an even longer day. Le sigh.

Make sure you go to the Theatricians website to buy your tickets!

I <3 Lazy Sundays

Had a rehearsal Friday night for a few hours, did some fun and creepy exercises for a couple of scenes.

I think I start rehearsals for Julius Caesar in a couple of weeks, and I actually have no idea how I am going to do those as well as rehearsing and performing bobrauschenbergamerica.

I predict lots of meldowns.

(side note: I just forgot I was writing and watched a whole Hallmark channel movie and then realized I had to finish. Oops.)

I've been thinking alot about the next few steps I want to take at this point in my career. I am pretty certain that I want to start looking for new representation by the late fall. I love Sheila, but she seems intent on keeping me tied to my commercial agent who A. does not have a theatrical division for me to sign to and B. doesn't seem to be getting me a whole lot of work.

Now granted commercial artists are working less at the moment, but lots of agencies like to sign artists for both commercial and theatrical representation and Sheila keeps saying "we can't abandon Kendall."

But Kendall hasn't gotten me shit. If I have an opportunity to work with an agency that will sign me for both, I am going to take it. And if Sheila is not ok with this then I am going to have to find a new manager as well.

As soon as I am done paying for Maeby's puppy classes my next priority is new headshots and once I have that I have a massive mailing list I want to send out to new agencies. Hopefully some will bite. Then I need to save some more so I can fully join up with SAG.

All this while looking for a new apartment and moving. I shudder at the thought. But I have also decided that after Caesar I probably won't audition for any plays for at least a few months. The time commitment makes it difficult to find as much work as I need to sustain myself. So I just need to find some kind of balance where all this can be achieved.

Also, does anyone have any suggestions for bug bite remedies? I have hydrocortisone cream and I put ice on them all the time but it only helps for a little. I tried lemon juice once too because I read that online and it didn't seem to help too much. I really am just covered in bug bites constantly. It's so gross. I just want to cut my legs off. This is why I like to stay indoors.

Skates Skates Skates

Last night's rehearsal was quick and fun. At least for me it was.

We just ran a few scenes as opposed to doing a whole run because quite a few people were not able to make it and I read Melissa's part in a couple of scenes which is always enjoyable.

I attempted to jump from one level of the stage to the other in my rollerskates but failed miserably. I couldn't build up the courage. I skated towards the edge of the stage and kind of fell into Ty and Will's arms instead of jumping off while yelling "catch meeeee!!"

Let's not push it. This shit is dangerous and a 24 year old with a broken wrist is not cute.

This past weekend I went to go see Devendra Banhart perform at Space 15 Twenty in Hollywood at a book release party. I love love love it when fantastic artists make their work available for free and do fun little shows like this. It's so refreshing and it was really fun and a great crowd, great space and great music set. He performed with Adam Tullie and Greg Rogove. Mariana got some pictures.

What a handsome bowtie, sir.

I really loved the space as well, very conducive to this kind of intimate performance. Too bad I was blocked by some beastly amazon standing in front of me for most of the show.
I'm just jealzies.


<3 Lourdes.

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AND YET AGAIN

I cannot sleep.

Probably a combination of heat and headache and can't shut my mind off.

We did a full run through of the play tonight. Definitely a stumble-through but we actually got through it and I am amazed that I knew where to be, relatively.

I read for Amy's part since she is shooting her guest spot on Ghost Whisperer this week. So I got to do all the Phil's Girl scenes on roller skates. Just silliness.

I was also very worried about having to go backstage to do crosses during the show because the stage is elevated and there are about five metal steps to get up and down from the wings on either side. And that would be way too loud and dangerous to do during a show in my "suicide boots" (thanks Ty). But luckily my crosses worked out that I can just enter and exit fluidly from whence I came and don't even need to worry about that.

I wish I had a nice camera to document all this. A fellow blogger whom I adore uses this camera but I actually just shrieked when I saw the price and woke up Maeby. She started barking and ran to the stairs because she thought there was an intruder. Such a brave little toaster.

Aaaaand now since it is officially Tuesday and I cannot sleep, here is a list of
Things I Love Tuesday:

1. Maebelline Sassafrass Funke


Not technically a thing, but beloved regardless.


2. French Magazines




(I need to interrupt my list to remind my readers to save their work. I just accidentally deleted this entire post and nearly had a heart attack. God bless the Undo button)

3. Fantastically Epic Film Trailers




4. A Brilliant Music Video/Song Combination

MGMT - Kids

(wouldn't let me embed, definitely worth the click)


5. Teeny Tiny Adorable Women Who Can Sing Their Asses Off

One Miss Kristen Chenoweth.




6. Shakespeare





7. While We Are on the Subject of Playwrights
Charles Mee


8. Yoga


9. Tea

White tea, Green tea, Black tea, Breakfast tea, Chamomile tea. All teas.
And they fix everything! Skin, weight, metabolism, hair, delicious.

10. New Cotton Sheets




(Which I would like to point out, my mother bought for my bed, not because I was suffering in my hot wintertime flannel sheets, but because she was concerned that Maeby was overheating at night)


All this stuff informs our art, right?

New Things

You may have noticed I made a few changes.

and by that I mean my dad did. Thanks papa!

I wanted to change the aesthetic of the blog mainly because I got tired of the old look but also because I thought it would be interesting to try something new, and as usual, I seem to think it is quite interesting.

After all, this may just be a blog but I think (or at least i like to think) that the goings on in my brain are a bit more interesting than the daily mundane musings of any old girl with a computer.

So the forum should be clean and interesting. Right?

I shudder to think of the week that awaits me. I have rehearsal every day until the end of time basically. And this week I am also housesitting a few days so I won't even be in my own space to be comfortable in. I have to juggle my locations as well. That's kind of an added annoyance. Especially when I am rehearsing in Woodland Hills, right by my own home, but housesitting in Santa Monica. Just my luck.

I forced myself to stay home today and not leave my house because I could feel the fatigue coming on. I rehearse/work almost every day on the days that I don't I have been packing way too much in and as a result was getting pretty overwhelmed. Hopefully today was a good way to start what will most likely be a very stressful and busy week.

At least I finished the Harry Potter books. I can finally go back to being a normal human being that does not read until 5 am every day. Though I'd like to congratulate myself on finishing all 7 books in 3 weeks. That's dedication folks. And a questionable social life. Now it's on to Pride and Prejudice and Zombies.


And now, heat permitting, I will attempt sleep.


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Cheese and Rice

yesterday was just one of those days.

I've been trying to get ready for this Julius Caesar audition all week and when I have to work all day before a reading or audition I really try to keep things calm so A. I don't get sweaty B. I don't get stressed C. Everything happens in a timely manner.

None of this happened yesterday.

Work was fun at times but a gigantic mess. I don't usually talk about other aspects about life not regarding acting, or at least I try not to on here, but this is just really pertinent to the kind of day that I had so it needs to be included. I had to take the girls out of their house for a few reasons and since it was too hot for the park or any outdoor activities I decided to bring them to my house. We played with Mae, who miraculously was very well behaved, we made cupcakes, blew bubbles, and played games. Translation: I knocked over the entire bubble container, thus ending the bubble game, and on the way back I managed to drop cupcakes in the car (that doesn't belong to me). Don't worry, thanks to the five second rule and the surreptitious use of my fingers to scoop frosting back on the cupcakes, they made it home. I also lost my balance and kind of maybe sort of dropped the baby and caused her to hit her head on the leg of a table. I also spilled water on me twice throughout the course of the day. Thank goodness I was home and could change into a relatively nice dress before the reading. Of course getting the two girls home with cupcakes was a nightmare and it made me late to getting on the fwy to get to the audition. and of course fate made traffic pretty much worse than it has ever been in my life. Arrived to audition twenty minutes late. The lovely crew at Declan Adams Theatre Co. was kind enough to wait for me to start the reading.

It was not a traditional audition so much as a table read through of the play so there were about 17 actors there reading the various parts for the director. I have been waiting for months to get a chance to read Portia, as it is a part I have always wanted to play, and I waited very patiently in my chair for 40 minutes before Portia had any lines.

Finally I begin the Portia speech, when about three lines in, the chair I am sitting in COLLAPSES, and I fall through the frame of the chair, mid-line, and am caught with my butt on the floor and my arms and feet around my head. I was trapped in my chair until my neighbors were able to pull me out. They were able to catch me so I didn't fall too hard and the nice girl next to me quickly grabbed my dress so that I did not flash anyone miraculously. But let's just say the humiliation was already there.

I have a couple of awesome scratches on my back but no blood, which may have been cooler.

I was able to continue my reading once I moved onto the safety of a couch and I was able to pull it together and finish the scene and I don't think it was too terrible. The lovely guy who was reading Brutus with me was a very kind scene partner and actually looked at me while I was speaking (rare in table reads) and I think that helped me refocus back into the scene.

Eesh.

So that was how I got to the much anticipated Julius Caesar audition. Thank god for lovely Leigh Dunham who forced me to go out afterwards so I wouldn't dwell on it, and the burrito really did make everything better.

Now onto rehearsal tonight!

Surprise

I got tonight off from rehearsal! And tomorrow night! I really don't know what I shall do! Oh wait, yes I do, I will prepare for my audition on Thursday. But at least I'll be home with my puppy.

I was so gross and hot today while at work it was a blessing to see I wouldn't have to go rollerskate my ass off all night as well. Thank god I am working right now though and fingers crossed I get another interview for a job tomorrow, because goodness knows that two jobs just aren't enough.

It's hard to get ready for an audition that is a play reading because I obviously have the one character I want to play and I am very familiar with her and her speeches, etc but I know that I will probably be given other parts to read and I mean I can't prepare for every single one because there are lots of freaking characters in Julius Caesar so it's kind of stressful trying to focus so hard on every detail and going over as much as I can over and over. Eep. It makes me want to eat a gigantic cheeseburger from The Counter. Maybe my dad will take me there for lunch tomorrow. It is unfortunate that his lunchtime is when I am usually waking up. It's too hot to sleep! I have to wait til like 4 am and then I can finally sleep. That and the insane need to finish Half-Blood Prince before this weekend is here has also made me kind of crazy. Though I should get some kind of award for reading 6 Harry Potter books in 2.5 weeks. I'm such a good reader. Awards please.

Ok gonna play with Maebelline now. She has crazy energy at night because she sleeps all day in the heat. Eskimos are not supposed to live in California.

Work Weekend

When you make your own schedule of work, rehearsals and other commitments sometimes I think I forget to make weekends for myself. Though this weekend was just lovely I kind of wish I had set aside a day of just relaxing because I'm kind of exhausted.




Friday night I went to see Henry V by Independent Shakespeare at Barnsdall Park. I looove going to see shows there, it's the perfect location in the city! And it's one of the great history plays. My friend Erwin Tuazon was just fantastic it was very fun to watch. And it's next to House of Pie. And let's be real, it's one of my favorite places on earth.

Saturday spent lots of fun time with my sister in SB while we trolled the french festival. Got my picture taken. www.santabarbarastyles.com

Today I had rehearsal all morning, was pretty cranky because I hate having to get up with my alarm clock, I think it's wrong and unnatural. But rehearsal itself was fun, we put alot of the play up on it's feet and it was a bit wacky because not only did I do my roller part but I also understudied Melissa today because she's out of town. I generally hate understudying but I'm glad I'm getting the opportunity to play. Though I do wish I had that part because it's so fun and I would love to play someone different. I mean yes she plays a slut but at least she's not the slut in background. That's my job.

Lots of rehearsal this week as well as audition/reading for Julius Caesar so trying to prepare for that while trying to not terrify myself while reading Harry Potter. Eff those books are scary.

Maeby is on a hunger strike and I am caving in. Trying to get her to only eat dry food but it's not working. I ruined her with her organic wet food and I probably shouldn't make her so much chicken and rice and carrots and peas. But she just loves them so! She hasn't eaten in two days though so I think the jig is up. I lose.

Great News

no broken bones last night or any major falls. Always a success when a rehearsal does not end in chaos and pain. Though I am still covered in bruises.

Gonna go see some lovely theater this weekend.

That's all.
p.s. am now accepting donations for the headshot fund. i figure if i have to donate to all my friends who are running a marathon then they should donate to my headshots. as if i don't realize they are just getting us to pay for their trip to hawaii. FUCK THAT. you know who you are.

forgive the lack of captialization. it's just too hot.

Holy Crap

I saw my stupid life flash before my eyes like 8 different times tonight in rehearsal. Learning a dance on rollerskates is pretty much impossible and terrifying.

Three seperate times I fell so hard that I am seriously amazed that I did not break any bones. The remaining few times I fell i was able to land on my side or was thankfully caught by a quick reflexed Will McFadden.

But seriously though. I feel broken. My toes and ankles are swollen and bruised from trying to do the dance on my tippy toes for two and a half hours. My butt has a gigantic bruise from the first brutal fall. I have a giant bruise and a purple bump on my elbow, and my back has the range of motion of an 80 year old. This is seriously wrong.

I'm pretty sure it's not supposed to be this dangerous.

I'm hoping tomorrow I don't break my neck. And that I won't be in this much pain.

But all that aside the dance is really fun and if I can pull it off it's going to be pretty hilarious.

Fingers crossed.

Back

From a wonderful holiday. The fourth is my favorite holiday of the year because it combines all my favorite holiday elements minus the stress of the actual holiday season. Food, friends, fireworks, beach, pool - perfect. Definitely not entirely happy to be back to work.

Had my rehearsals for bob last week, went really well, I adore my castmates and director. I am really terrified each time I get on the skates but as it turns out most of it is coming back fairly quickly. Except for turning to the left. I can only go right. Maybe it will come to me in time? I could go backwards by the end of my last run of this show so I am hoping I will have mad skillz again soon.

A few auditions coming up here and there in the coming weeks - Shakespeare and perhaps a vampire film. Hopefully they will come to fruition and I can continue being busy and Maeby can continue hating me. It's bad enough I left her for a whole weekend. Bad doggie mama.

Work all day tomorrow then rehearsal all evening. I hope my legs and feet feel better. I am an ass and didn't have proper footwear on my vacation and seem to have injured my ankles and feet somehow. Total idiot.

Veggies only this week. Too much yummy food and beer this weekend. No one likes a fat vampire.