I Smell Like Coppertone.

Thank god it is hot out again. I am obsessive about sunscreen and wear it every day but when the sun gets really strong again in the spring and summer, I bust out the Coppertone. No UV rays will get me. I may be the palest girl in California now, but I'll have less wrinkles and sunspots later!

I am always beyond pale at my auditions in comparison with other girls. Especially when I go to the "Latina" calls. I don't really fit in when I go to those. But even standard auditions I am one of the few who is not tan or orange. It is just so unappealing. I don't understand when orange became acceptable.

My imagination has been in overdrive lately, I'm not quite sure why, but I find myself more distracted and daydreaming than usual. But in a strange way it helps to keep me focused and keeps my brain on a creative track. I work with babies and yesterday when one of the kids fell asleep while I was holding her, I literally disappeared into my mind for a good half hour or maybe more, just letting my thoughts follow each other, and see where they went. Like an imaginative stream of consciousness I suppose. I like hearing music, then transporting myself to being present when the music being played, then I start to think about all the different ways that music can be showcased. Then I usually try to develop some kind of movement based stage piece that would somehow go with whatever I am listening to. It rarely works.

Yesterday I was having my kids listen to Irish music for obvious reasons and my brain just floated around for a while trying to creatively connect certain songs or sounds with physical movement or with light.

I do this alot when I listen to Muse. I used them in the one person show I wrote a few years ago because I really find the epic and theatrical quality lends well to theatre. That band in particular really motivates me to daydream about the possibilities of different performance ideas. I really like the idea of taking really theatrical music, and putting it with amazing graphics, dancers, actors, lighting, and seeing what kind of strange piece would come of it. Like a contemporary ballet or something. Set to Queen. That would be awesome and weird.

I think about that stuff sometimes. It is good for my brain I think.

Oh and how amazing does this movie look? I hope it blows away my imagination and mind.



I hope it is everything I want it to be. More thinking outside the box, please.