Preparing.

I've been working on my side's for the callback I have on Thursday, they are all scenes that Rosalind has with Orlando when she is dressed as a boy and I am trying to figure out what physical and vocal choices I am going to make to separate Rosalind from her male alter ego Ganymede.

I start to get anxious and second guess my choices when I have to step outside of my box. I am a girl. I can play a girl. But to have to make male choices and find a male voice and a male physicality, even if it is still a girl playing a boy- starts to make me feel nervous.

Because when you have to make more bold, albeit probably interesting character choices, it becomes more likely that people will either love them or hate them. It's a step out of my comfort zone which, obviously, acting is all about that, but at the same time, there are levels to that.

This is a good audition to work on this because it was a low pressure audition, the people were really nice and supportive, and at the end of the day, it's just a job. Doesn't even pay. So if I make a choice that they don't like and I don't get cast, oh well. It's just another audition. So I might as well just make the big choices. And stop being such a stupid ass pansy.