headaches.

Went to my callback this evening. It was at the LGBT center in Hollywood, which was gorgeous! Such a nice museum and great offices and rehearsal space for the Gay Men's Chorus. I guess the Chorus let us use their rehearsal space for the callback.

The bathrooms in the building are all unisex, probably to acomodate our trannylicious friends, but it was gross to go in and use a bathroom that clearly had been used by dirty boys. Gives me the icks. Lord knows I love a good tranny though.

The callback went well, I mean whatever they all do right? Unless I totally screw up they are all pretty much the same. I can gauge my performance pretty well and I was well prepared so I did all I could. Did two Orlando/Rosalind scenes, both twice after getting notes from the director. They were very nice and seem to know their Shakespeare which is always good to see.

Hopefully will know or not know soon.

Pretty much immediatly after an audition I let it go. I can't dwell or think or anything because I would go crazy I think. I can't just think about them once they are finished. It would probably give me a nervous breakdown. Especially as it seems to be getting harder and harder to deal with. It probably comes in waves. My ability to handle it, I mean.

As soon as I left the callback I got a pounding headache that still hasn't gone away. I think that I just so intensely have to focus on the audition that when I finally am finished all that tension goes straight to my head. It's like when people have seizures. When people come out of them they are exhausted like they ran a marathon because all the electrical shit in their brains goes haywire. It's kind of like that. Except non-life threatening. Right?