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Every day I think of things I should write here but I have not had a chance to sit and write it and now that I actually have a minute I am drawn blank. I am probably being distracted by the manliness that is Bear Grylls.

Had a good performance on Saturday. I felt a bit better than the first one, though we are sharing a dressing room now with a Burlesque show that is performing on the stage next door. It's a nightmare as you can imagine. There is no room and everyone is perpetually shushing each other and it's hard to keep focus. Luckily I don't have a part that particularly requires an intense amount of focus. If we were doing Hamlet, you better believe I'd be losing my shit on those skanks. They aren't even a classy Burlesque show, because I actually really like burlesque if it's done well, I adore Dita Von Tees but this is just pathetic and trashy. Speaking of which, Catherine Hardwicke is directing the new concept Hamlet on screen starring Emile Hirsche and I would eat a baby for a chance to audition. Lord knows I have reservations about Hardwicke as a director but who cares. It'd be rad. But I think that would require my manager to remember I exist. FAIL. As soon as I get new headshots I am shopping for someone new.

I'm feeling so overwhelmed with the many stages of getting out into the world and how it seems like every time I pass some kind of hurdle, another seemingly insurmountable one rears it's head at me. Usually I take this in stride but the past few weeks I've just felt the weight of it.

On Monday Alexa set up a meeting with a woman who wants to start an acting class that I would be really interested in taking. She wants to tailor it to people who are already professionals and are trained but want to fine tune their work and do some scene study, which I think is great. A huge part of why I haven't found a class I like out here yet is because so many seem to have people of different abilities and goals and that leads to alot of time wasting and is not helpful to me at this point I think. So I really hope it works out and that I can afford it when the times comes.

I hate this weather.
excuse my crankiness.