Flighty

I've just sucked at posting lately! Every day I think today I'm gonna write but I get distracted, or exhausted at work and then it never happens.! 10 days! That's not good, this writing, as silly as it may seem, actually helps me to keep my brain on track for what I need to be doing or even just thinking about my goals, process, etc. Even if I am not doing anything at the moment. Probably even more necessary when I am not doing things because I have the time to research artists that I admire, watch films, go to shows, but also think about the direction I want to head and the steps I need to take to get there. Also, I really am trying hard to not have this be some flighty, flaky, quickly abandoned thing I do, like so many things. I fight my flightiness every day.

That being said, I've pretty much done nothing other than hang around my new apartment with Mae or be at work. I'm still trying to get the hang of this restaurant thing. I know it's an actor staple, but I'm not sure if it's going to be a Lourdes staple. It's physically exhausting as well as stressful, and you wouldn't think that a job that entails walking people to a table should be stressful, but it is. Not sure if it's what I need in my life at this moment. I guess the beauty of my life at this moment is that I can pretty much do whatever I want, so long as I can somehow pay the rent each month. I don't feel tied to anything in particular and that is just a lovely freedom to have.

I went to a show at UCB (Upright Citizens Brigade) last week with Leigh, and it was great. I live right up the street from UCB so I hope to be going more often. Leigh takes classes there and I would absolutely love to in the near future as well. It seems like a nice little community as well as good training. Improv has always been something I loathe/fear intensely so I think it would be a good push for myself and making new friends is also always neat and something I kind of have to push myself to do.

Leigh's teacher named Charlie did about 4o minutes of standup and he was incredibly funny and charismatic. Too bad the sketch group that went after them was HORRIFIC. We let it slide though because it was a fun evening. There are a few cute little bars next to it so we ate some fancy smores and then Leigh went back to another show and I joined the boys at the midnight showing of Where The Wild Things Are. Beautiful film. Obviously I cried. I just love Spike Jonze.

I am going to make an effort to post something every day this week. I certainly have enough on my mind as well as pictures of ladies that I love and admire and their info that i'd love to research so I will get on that.

I am also trying to get myself to start P90X this week, after literally months of saying I was going to do it. But this is the week. right? It's just been so hot and since it's finally nice and grey out I will honestly try this week. It's just so much easier to starve myself. Especially when I can't afford food.

I think Mae and I are gonna walk to the costume store today and see if I can find anything for Halloween. I am not one of those individuals who loves to dress up, I think mainly because A. I think dressing up like a whore in some stupid theme is lame, B. I dress up for a living and C. I'm an adult.

Sometimes I will admit it's fun, but I am TERRIBLE at coming up with original costume ideas. For the past three years I've drawn whiskers on my face and been a cat. Anyone have any ideas? So far the only thing I have come up with is to go as my dog. Which is great in theory, but may be difficult in practice unless I can find some kind of Yeti costume and transform it to look like a small, snobby puppy.



I think if Mae had a thought bubble it would often say "Sigh...this bitch."